I'm only a few days shy of turning 30, but the essence of being 30 has been on my mind all year.
For me, this year has already brought about so much change, growth, and reflection. Graduating from just writing anything everyday, I've decided as I enter this new phase of my life, I'd like to start writing with more intention at lease for 30 days. I've compiled a list of thirty prompts to help me better reflect on who I am as a teacher, a woman, a traveller, a teacher, and a writer. I first compiled them in my bullet journal with an illustration (below) and then I created the cute graphic (above) using my favorite site at the moment, Canva. So far, I've written for eleven days and I will be posting them in no particular order on my feature page. Check out my posts and if any inspire you to write, please feel free to share them in the comments. Happy writing. P.S. I'm aware that there are 31 days in May, however, this doesn't have to match up with the date of the month. I created these to allow me to reflect on turning 30. I just happen to be turning 30 in May.
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Insomnia.
Those moments in the hours between early riser and night owl. The stigma wouldn't be so damning if it it produced creativity. You know how they say 'all the great minds are insane and suffer from this or that.' Perhaps, I made that up, but still, they produce in their madness. They create universes with their lyrics, weave worlds with their words, spark imagination with their brush strokes. For me, in those moments of frozen panic, I am left alone with my captor, anxiety, relentless in its hold. I'm not sure when I became aware that my anxieties were cultivated by fear. Fears as real as wondering where my next meal would come from, to imagined- everyone at my job knows that I know nothing and I'll be called in to have my credentials revoked. Fear, this seed, sometimes barely visible, yet we've been conditioned to bear it's highly visible fruit. Unseen vines slither their way into insecure minds, ripening, feeding off the suffering they are providing. Fear, I've recently begun stepping inside of it, dancing the shackles away. Embracing the fierce power residing inside of me, keeping the anxieties at bay. Freedom, I realized is on the other side of fear. P.S. This truth has been the best medicine to induce restful sleep. |
Ubuntu: I am who I am because of who we are. AuthorEsther was born in Utah, raised in Durham (Bull City), North Carolina. Over the last 6 years she has lived in 6 cities, 3 states, and 4 countries. She doesn't like traveling or anything... Archives
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